Im ruining my relationship, friendships and my life. I don’t know whats wrong with me. Like I used to be so outgoing and for the last while I can’t talk around people like my friends and now I can’t even talk to my Boyfriend which I’ve been dating for over 3 years now. Hes my other half and I dont know what this is. I’m crying constently over nothing, over this, over the stupid shit I do. I’ll be with my boyfriend all the time and we wont even talk, i dont know why Its just starting to tear me up inside more and more everyday. Prom was last night and it was Horible, because of me. Im ruining everything and its making mylife and my relationship so complicated in so many ways. Im not myself at all and I just keep making things worse and getting worse
I was on this depressent pill for pain because I have fibermyalgia but then I can off of it and went back on it and came off of it and back on it and now Im off of it. Its summer time and im going to have to go on it for pain and sickness. Could this be whats screwing me up so much. What is happening to me, omg.
Sometimes I get sucidal, like now for instents. It’s 1 oclock in the morning and Im here crying on my bed. Im going to end up avoiding my boyfriend because I dont want to loose him. I cant ever make him happy when hes with me.
Late at night time its almost like I take an attack. I get really upset and blame myself, and reflect on everything negative because I don’t see anything positive. Then I become suicidal